Saturday, July 4, 2009

It's gone

Well, it's hair is gone. Just last Sunday I was able to style it and no one really knew that it was falling out, but this week I have lost it all. It was hard. Who would'a thunk? I mean it's just hair, right? Yep, it is just hair. Just hair that I love to wear in ponytails. Just hair that I love to have brushed and styled by kids. Just hair that I love feeling the water run over in the shower. Just hair that I love to blowdry and brush and style and look great! But really, it is just hair. Just a thing - a thing that regardless of what happens here I will get back in the resurrection. So, I am trying to keep that eternal perspective. But I have to admit that it is not always easy.

This week I also had a CT scan to check the status of my cancer after 2 rounds of chemo. It was gross. I had to drink this nasty barium junk and of course I threw it up - so YUCK! But, I made it through. We won't get the results until a week from Monday, for 2 reasons. First of all that is my next appointment and second of all we will be in Yosemite all next week so we won't be calling the doctor for updates. I'm okay with it. Waiting is not always a bad thing. I know that the cancer is getting it's butt kicked so I really can wait to hear that from the doc. I will post the update after I see the doctor.

We had a really fun day today. We started off the 4th festivites by meeting with our ward for a pancake breakfast and parade at the park. The kids had a blast. Following that we came home and packed the kids' bags for Yosemite and then relaxed for a few hours. Around 3 we headed over to Grandma and Grandpa Morgan's for the annual BBQ and swim party followed by fireworks. David and I got to watch most of the movie Independence Day with my Dad. It is his annual tradition to sit and watch that movie on the 4th and I am glad we got to participate. David and the kids had a great time in the pool and the food was delicious. While the kids ate dessert I cleaned out the van and hooked up the DVD player for our trip on Monday. Then we watched Grandpa Morgan set off a bunch of fireworks. It was a delightful evening and I am so grateful that we got to spend the afternoon/evening with my family.

We leave on Monday for Yosemite and I am super excited. I am a little nervous as we will be 2.5 hours from any real emergency room and with my chemo I can get sick easily. I am very excited that we get to spend time with the Cox side of the fam. I am very excited to take a vacation from the everyday. I love going to Yosemite (we go each year) and I absolutely love camping there. It is amazing, all of the beautiful things to see. I can't wait. I will post lots of pictures when we get back. Have a great week everyone - I know we will!!!!!!!!


The Browns said...

We Love you!!

Shooting Starchild said...

Your new look is beautiful! If you're interested in learning how to do a turban style wrap I picked up some tips in Humboldt (but rarely have an excuse to wear it).

Have fun in Yosemite! We'll be praying that you'll have a good week!

Mom said...


I hope you are having a great time in Yosemite. You never knew my brother - but he also had cancer. I can still remember how hard it was for him to lose his hair - and he was a 45 year old man! There is nothing easy about cancer - it is a wicked disease. I think about you a lot - you have an amazing attitude and that can only help you with your battle. My thoughts and prayers are with you and David.

Love and hugs,

The Browns said...

Hey beautiful!!! I know that you are in the hospital again. Hope you are doing better. I also hope that you got to enjoy some on Yosemite while you were there??? I know that you will be flooded with phone calls and people, but please know that we love you and if you feel like it, call me. Our prayers are with you and the family!!! WE LOVE YOU!!!